I will admit I am a little strung out. I will also admit that at times, it takes next to nothing to make me that way. I did find it humorous earlier this week that I said "oh, tonight is not too bad. We just have track, piano and tennis." How is having 3 things after work not too bad? I suppose it is because all those things got done by 5:30 and I had an evening to myself, but not really. I went to the fabric store to buy fabric so I could modify Kelsea's dress for prom.
So I dread spring now. It is busier no matter how you try to manage it, than December. Everything always looks manageable until everything decides it is time to wind it with huge production numbers. That is how you know the end it near because of the flurry, the tornado, the fireworks of the finale to finally send it off and put it to rest until next year. And everyone wants to do it all at the same time. The District track meet will happen on the same day as the elementary honor band tour that requires a chold to be dropped off and picked up during the parents work day. OK.
It is hard to say no to the things the kids do when they get done with that track meet and you were so reluctant to add another thing and your daughter says "that was so much fun! I just loved that!" even though she came in 3rd in the shotput and there were only 3 girls and she didn't place at all in the 60. And she is running with the most persistent infected toenail and then continues to run when they cut part of it off. All right fine, join track.
I asked Kelsea over and over about Prom. It wasn't her fault no one from her school asked her. And then the kid who did found a way to ask her even though he didn't go to her school. Then he asks her on the Sunday before prom. On top of the already busy week we get him permission to attend. I have to alter a dress she already has but am too exhausted all week to work on it. Then there is the flower she needs for him. She is too busy to do that. Miracles did happen this week. She had dress she felt more modest in. Friends did her hair. I was parting with my car because the dress was so big and he doesn't have his license yet. I tried to get all my shopping done during the day-I usually wait until late Saturday to that. In the middle of my grocery shopping I get a call from Kylee saying that the guy was waiting for me to pick up the flower I ordered for her the night before. I forgot to tell Kelsea to pick it up and it left my mind completely. They closed at 1-it was 1:30. I try to figure out what to do. Amber is volunteering at the Jazz festival downtown, Kelsea is on her day date at Wahooz in Meridian and Lee Joe is working. It's me. I am it. I have a cart with lots of groceries. What do i do? I left it. I told the checker I would be back. Drive the way with the shortest stoplights, right past my house, to the florist. I feel so bad and liek such an idiot. He says "usually it's the dad's that do that." I am just the most frazzled mom at the moment. I don't ever forget things like that. I drop the flower off at home and go back to my cart. I get done shopping, I don't even want to put gas in the car and I need to be home and get things put up and my house clean. Kelsea texts me in the middle of her getting her hair done. "did you get me a bra?" CRAP!!! Nope, nope.. another thing forgotten. It is close to when she needs to get dressed. I go to Burlington coat factory and hope that this is the day that store will have what I need when I need it. You never know there. They do! Fastest shopping trip EVER! good. It getting later. kelsea isn't back. Her date shows up. We are waiting. She has a tremendous amount of hair. It's not just long but very thick. 3 hours later-and it's beautiful- she comes home and we throw her clothes on. We get her to the park on time for pictues. Everyone is already there but just got there.
We got great pictures this time. And then the date became a disaster.
Lee Joe is right about something with me. I am way to empathetic to point that I think I can be pathetic. When my kids struggle I feel everything right with them. They are upset-I feel the same pain. I feel the pain of the other kid involved as well. Then my other daughter is in another kind of heartbreak pain. I am feeling the pain of two kids at once and have to work really hard to separate myself from them. ugh. It was a rough night after all that work to try and make it special. The pictures make it look good though. We will imagine it that way.
I have quote of the week. Little girls comes up to me. This is the one that almost named me Mrs. Dorito. She was sad. "the kids don't believe me." She shakes her head. "don't believe what?" "well Lilly does but the rest don't" "What is it?" "they don't believe me that I am a werewolf. My sister saw me when I was sleeping that I am werewolf. They won't believe it." "I see" I say. "Well I think that is something you should be kind of quiet about and just tell your really good friends, cause that is kind of a scary thing to be don't you think." "Yeah. You want to hear me howl?" What a quirky girl.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Thursday, April 08, 2010
Just so you know
So today was nuts and I didn't have time for migraine but that is what I got. Could be because I had no fun the past 2 days.
I colonoscopy. For a recap. Everyone said the prep stuff-probably like 2 gallons of nasty, was nasty. Once I disguised it with Crystal light it was somewhat drinkable but I only drank a little more than hapf of it before I just felt like I had the flu-achy and my face was flushing and chills. I had some sinus crud going on to make it lovely and couldn't take anything. So my colonoscopy was 1 the next day. I thought I didn't do the prep right. I was worried I messed it up. Everyone told me though that I wouldn't remember anything. I mean everyone I talked to said that. They drugged me but it must not have been enough and I remember EVERYTHING. It was painful. Reminded me of having kids at one point. Yep, hurt like that. I saw what my insides look like and I remember EVERYTHING!! The results were, I guess, not bad. Healthy except for some internal hemmorids. Like anyone wants to really know that but at least I know. Not much I can do about that though.
And it's Spring. Spring gets as nuts as December. Not fun at all.
Kelsea is still having some friend drama but that is calming down a little.
Amber has changed her minor to Biomedical engineering. Her major is material something engineering. I can't remember it all. And she decided to try out for the Blue Thunder Marching Band. She is excited and I am for her too. They are so much fun.
My 3 youngest are keeping my free taxi service running. I am ready for summer vacation. I think it is 8 weeks away. Could be 7 but I need to look it up to be sure. No funny anecdotes today. I am too drugged I think.
I colonoscopy. For a recap. Everyone said the prep stuff-probably like 2 gallons of nasty, was nasty. Once I disguised it with Crystal light it was somewhat drinkable but I only drank a little more than hapf of it before I just felt like I had the flu-achy and my face was flushing and chills. I had some sinus crud going on to make it lovely and couldn't take anything. So my colonoscopy was 1 the next day. I thought I didn't do the prep right. I was worried I messed it up. Everyone told me though that I wouldn't remember anything. I mean everyone I talked to said that. They drugged me but it must not have been enough and I remember EVERYTHING. It was painful. Reminded me of having kids at one point. Yep, hurt like that. I saw what my insides look like and I remember EVERYTHING!! The results were, I guess, not bad. Healthy except for some internal hemmorids. Like anyone wants to really know that but at least I know. Not much I can do about that though.
And it's Spring. Spring gets as nuts as December. Not fun at all.
Kelsea is still having some friend drama but that is calming down a little.
Amber has changed her minor to Biomedical engineering. Her major is material something engineering. I can't remember it all. And she decided to try out for the Blue Thunder Marching Band. She is excited and I am for her too. They are so much fun.
My 3 youngest are keeping my free taxi service running. I am ready for summer vacation. I think it is 8 weeks away. Could be 7 but I need to look it up to be sure. No funny anecdotes today. I am too drugged I think.
Saturday, April 03, 2010
What's up? Spring Break is over!
Yep I am sad and am in a frumpy mood. That could be because the weather all week-the week of Spring break has been the worst. Rainy snowy and gloomy. I should be running out the door right now jumping up and down and rejoicing because it did clear up magically and it isn't too freezing out there. But I am putting off easter egg dying, finding Easter baskets, making beinyas because of the movie Princess and the Frog. Hannah will not give up on this today so I better get busy. In a minute.
A rundown of what we have done--
Lets see-there were 2 birthdays in one week this year and that week was the CRAZIEST one we have had in some time. Autumn got to participate in an All State choir that only comes to our part of Idaho like every 7 years. That was out in Nampa. That required transportion to a little town I never go to but maybe once every few years any more. So we took 5 girls out to an evening practice and then there was a concert the next day at 4. Who really makes a concert for kids at 4 in Nampa with a majority of the kids from Boise? I left work early with Hannah to go see it. And the man that directed them was an internationally known children's choir conductor of some sort. I will just believe what they say. But it was a very good concert. Then we had a sleep over with 11 and 12 year olds that weekend for Autumn. Needless to say after that week I was hammered.
Things don't want to let up. I am sure it's my own fault. I will take responsibility for the inability to say no. Now Autumn is doing track. Kelsea is doing tennis. I don't have to attend everything with her but I do like to show up. I am not telling you all the other things that were already going on. There are boyfriends for couple of girls-and some breaking up with boyfriends. One of the breaking up with boyfriends was because one certain girly can't be exclusive. That's ok with me. Then it came back to hurt her when a girlfriend became very jealous over a boy and is now doing things to intentionally hurt my kiddo who was her best friend. Yucky! That's so not good and I am not sure what to do with it. I am wondering how much of what they are doing is really like cyber-bullying to an extent and whether or not these other girls have decided to stop their obnoxious mean behavior or if it continuing on. Fun with teenagers in this day and age. You want to feel like a fish out of water? I feel like my days in high school is now ancient history and I am a little lost now in how to parent my teenagers. Well I am a better parent to younger kids and this whole teenager thing does make me want to crawl under a rock until it's over. But that would be a very long time.
So other than my grumbling about busy kids, working full-time, always feeling like I am buried with everything that needs to be done, the hard working hubby that is never home now-a-days when we are(but it is job and we are SOOO thankful for it even if isn't the one we would want forever)the teenage hormones, did I mention the misery of teenage girls? Yep, grumpfest. I need a vacation! Away from everything and everyone. Spring Break doesn't count! I am home all week with the kids and too worn out to be any fun, too overwhelmed to do anything but try to catch up on chores and pile reduction and I didn't really accomplish anything.
So I know that even though working is neccessary at this time. I am not happy with my job. But I am happy for the time off I get and the insurance. But I so much still want and need to be at home. I am writing something right now and it consumes my thoughts but my life in general eats up the time I want to spend working on it.
Another good thing-I have been forcing time for exercise. I have to make it happen and it happens at like 9 or later at night. But the good news is-even though I haven't lost much weight, I have lost about 2 inches all over. YAY! I have been doing lots of cardio and yoga both. But I am also trying to get the anxiety and depression relief from it and it's not helping that much yet. I guess I would be a lot worse off if I wasn't doing it.
There needs to be more good news. We got our first actual decent tax return in several years. I finally got a stove. A flat top stove with 4! yes 4 working burners!! No more family members trying to burn my house down. wink wink--haha....
I need to dig up some more good news. hmmmm.... I guess I will have to think about it for awhile. Oh, Autumn doesn't know this yet. But some people from her little Y-ball basketball team set up something super cool today. But in a recap- I probably didn't post much about how her team won in their 6th grade basketball tournament. The last game they were down by 3 and someone made a basket and a free throw in the last seconds in the game to tie it and they went into overtime and won! One of the parents drives a limo so in between games he drove the girls from the team in it around and then to the team party. That day was awesome for her. So tonight they are going to an Idaho Stampede game. That's our local basketball team. I forget which league they are considered but not quite NBA. The girls will be called down at the beginning of the game as 6th grade y-ball stampede champions and then they will get to do the tunnel when everyone comes out. Then afterwards they are going to get to have their jerseys signed by the players on the team. So that should be exciting. Maybe if I ever decide to post pictures again, you will get to see it. But of course it hasn't happened just yet! Ha!
Anyway, not the most uplifting post. I would have posted sooner but this gloomy mood of mine has been pretty persistent. I better go make those beinyas and see how they are. On my new stove!
A rundown of what we have done--
Lets see-there were 2 birthdays in one week this year and that week was the CRAZIEST one we have had in some time. Autumn got to participate in an All State choir that only comes to our part of Idaho like every 7 years. That was out in Nampa. That required transportion to a little town I never go to but maybe once every few years any more. So we took 5 girls out to an evening practice and then there was a concert the next day at 4. Who really makes a concert for kids at 4 in Nampa with a majority of the kids from Boise? I left work early with Hannah to go see it. And the man that directed them was an internationally known children's choir conductor of some sort. I will just believe what they say. But it was a very good concert. Then we had a sleep over with 11 and 12 year olds that weekend for Autumn. Needless to say after that week I was hammered.
Things don't want to let up. I am sure it's my own fault. I will take responsibility for the inability to say no. Now Autumn is doing track. Kelsea is doing tennis. I don't have to attend everything with her but I do like to show up. I am not telling you all the other things that were already going on. There are boyfriends for couple of girls-and some breaking up with boyfriends. One of the breaking up with boyfriends was because one certain girly can't be exclusive. That's ok with me. Then it came back to hurt her when a girlfriend became very jealous over a boy and is now doing things to intentionally hurt my kiddo who was her best friend. Yucky! That's so not good and I am not sure what to do with it. I am wondering how much of what they are doing is really like cyber-bullying to an extent and whether or not these other girls have decided to stop their obnoxious mean behavior or if it continuing on. Fun with teenagers in this day and age. You want to feel like a fish out of water? I feel like my days in high school is now ancient history and I am a little lost now in how to parent my teenagers. Well I am a better parent to younger kids and this whole teenager thing does make me want to crawl under a rock until it's over. But that would be a very long time.
So other than my grumbling about busy kids, working full-time, always feeling like I am buried with everything that needs to be done, the hard working hubby that is never home now-a-days when we are(but it is job and we are SOOO thankful for it even if isn't the one we would want forever)the teenage hormones, did I mention the misery of teenage girls? Yep, grumpfest. I need a vacation! Away from everything and everyone. Spring Break doesn't count! I am home all week with the kids and too worn out to be any fun, too overwhelmed to do anything but try to catch up on chores and pile reduction and I didn't really accomplish anything.
So I know that even though working is neccessary at this time. I am not happy with my job. But I am happy for the time off I get and the insurance. But I so much still want and need to be at home. I am writing something right now and it consumes my thoughts but my life in general eats up the time I want to spend working on it.
Another good thing-I have been forcing time for exercise. I have to make it happen and it happens at like 9 or later at night. But the good news is-even though I haven't lost much weight, I have lost about 2 inches all over. YAY! I have been doing lots of cardio and yoga both. But I am also trying to get the anxiety and depression relief from it and it's not helping that much yet. I guess I would be a lot worse off if I wasn't doing it.
There needs to be more good news. We got our first actual decent tax return in several years. I finally got a stove. A flat top stove with 4! yes 4 working burners!! No more family members trying to burn my house down. wink wink--haha....
I need to dig up some more good news. hmmmm.... I guess I will have to think about it for awhile. Oh, Autumn doesn't know this yet. But some people from her little Y-ball basketball team set up something super cool today. But in a recap- I probably didn't post much about how her team won in their 6th grade basketball tournament. The last game they were down by 3 and someone made a basket and a free throw in the last seconds in the game to tie it and they went into overtime and won! One of the parents drives a limo so in between games he drove the girls from the team in it around and then to the team party. That day was awesome for her. So tonight they are going to an Idaho Stampede game. That's our local basketball team. I forget which league they are considered but not quite NBA. The girls will be called down at the beginning of the game as 6th grade y-ball stampede champions and then they will get to do the tunnel when everyone comes out. Then afterwards they are going to get to have their jerseys signed by the players on the team. So that should be exciting. Maybe if I ever decide to post pictures again, you will get to see it. But of course it hasn't happened just yet! Ha!
Anyway, not the most uplifting post. I would have posted sooner but this gloomy mood of mine has been pretty persistent. I better go make those beinyas and see how they are. On my new stove!
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